Compass

The devil's tool is to rob us from our happiness and supplement it with what only satisfies us for a short time. What is replaced is not fulfilling, nor does it make us to a look back and say wow, that was so beautiful and pure. These replacements do not fulfill a life of purpose.

What is a life of purpose though? I used to think that this meant that God had only one job for each of us, we do it, we win a prize and life is good. But why wouldn't God use our talents. Why wouldn't He consider our interests, talents and passions?

Right now, I am in a place with very little limitations. In six months, when I finish school, Matt and I could literally go anywhere. I am terrified of this and at the same time this is what keeps me going everyday. I have spent so much time planning for every next move I am going to make that I am out of moves and it is time to draw a wild card. And now my life of purpose is suddenly undefined.

Suddenly the goal is to not have as many goals.

The devil wants me to spend so much time thinking about tomorrow that I go on auto pilot through the present. I am worried all the time about things that just don't matter and not considering the things that really do. I'm planning, yet I'm not getting anything accomplished. As of now, I'm going to start making meaning of my life by thinking about the present actions that I'm taking. Some people live in the past and dwell on things that happened so long ago, no one even remembers but them. Others live in the future, like myself, fear for the worst, and never look around the present to see what they can do today. There is somewhere in between and it's called right now.

I want to learn from my mistakes in the past and take a step forward while looking all around me. God can be my compass, and he will lead me in the best direction so I will not worry so much about getting lost. I can actually enjoy the ride with the things that God has given to me.