Portrait of "the oughta be"

There are so many things that I would be better off with or without. 

This list could go on forever, and I feel that it is so hard

to keep up with all the ways I can make myself better. 

I think that it is safe to say

I am an "oughta be" person.

I like to think about things that I could do differently

and I think,

and I think,

and I think.

I spend a lot of time thinking, and little time doing. 

Maybe I am a dreamer in that sense. 

But if those dreams become obsession, they are really 

impairing me from accomplishing anything. 

I have been inspired to try my best to let that go. 

John Lennon said, 

"life happens when your busy making plans".

Story of my life. 

When asked at a job interview what my weakness is,

I tend to think that it IS my planning. 

This can also serve a purpose, but at times 

I get so carried away that I forget to live in the moment. 

We all have quarks, and many of us are, *gulp* a bit neurotic. 

Sometimes though, it is time to stop and enjoy a moment. 

Like now, the rain is falling and sounds awesome on the window. 

There is no need to think about what I could change 

about tomorrow. 

The best thing about my life and my situation is my capacity to grow. 

I would like to stop using the word "change" and perhaps replace it with

"evolve".

I am learning all these new things everyday, 

and that in itself is transforming my life. 

Of course, bettering yourself is a good thing,

but too much of that is just selfish. 

Tomorrow will be a new chance for me to try something new. 

For tonight, I will enjoy the rain.