Adventurous

Sometimes I wish I were rich and that I could have a butler and a chef and a Bentley. I think it would be nice if my only problem was that I needed to get an intercom system because my house was too big. Sometimes I waste away entire days wishing I was a movie star and that I could travel to Africa and that I had a closet full of shoes.

Those days I spent day-dreaming are gone, and I will never get them back. God is telling me something, and I think it's something I've never thought of before: these moments are like black outs, and I am missing the moments around me.

I met a couple this month who literally ran away for Colorado to get married. When they told us that suddenly I was envious of the adventure that they had. I felt boring because I am not as spontaneous as i wish I was. Then I thought a lot about that this week and it suddenly dawned on me that my entire life has been this one big adventure.

I wouldn't begin to try and give my life story, there wouldn't be nearly enough blogs, but I can say that I have grown in my years and I have learned that life is measured by the tiniest of moments: the day that my parents got divorced, the day my dad got remarried, the time I first prayed to God, the day I climbed Long's Peak, the day my heart was broken, the moment I met Matt, calling Ronda on the phone saying I would marry Matt one day, the day Ronda passed away, the day I DID marry Matt. Every time someone changed my life, and every single time someone told me I changed theirs. Those moments shaped into this beautiful journey that I call my life. Sometimes I took chances, and other things just kind of happened. Whatever the case, I am reflective and grateful for the chance to realize that we all have a unique story to tell.

I want to have an imagination, I want to take chances and I want to ask for God's will, but I'm not going to black out in these day dreams anymore. I will never be a movie star or need an intercom, but as long as God keeps me on this earth I will always have laughter, friendship, and love.